I’m sure this is true for all anxiety sufferers, but I get anxious about past experiences. I’ll think of a critique someone said about me, or a complaint about my behavior, or something along those lines that really bothers me. I’ll then get upset, and if I continue thinking along this train of thought it will end in tears. Which is ridiculous- I could be crying about having been bullied 10 years ago and it would appear like I’d just had a traumatic experience.
I’ve been trying to catch myself early on, to stop these negative thoughts. My thought pattern usually starts with me thinking “NO. STOP IT. DON’T THINK THIS. STOP IT. STOP IT”. But the bad, anxious thoughts will prevail, and I’ll get upset over my negative thought patterns rather than about the thought itself.
But then something funny happens: these two thoughts duke it out. It’s like I have two brains and they are waging a war inside my head. I never became aware of this until tonight, and when I think about this the awareness of my competing thoughts and the fact that my brain is able to do this is absolutely fascinating. It gets to the point where the fascination over how my brain works makes the two competing thoughts fizzle out- they disappear. How cool is that? I think I need to consciously do this in the future.
Let me tell you, it’s awesome being an Aspie. Anyone else experience this?
I’m going to start exercising in the morning. Living in the burbs isn’t doing my body any favors. We have a treadmill in the basement so I think I’m going to use it and watch old episodes of Parks & Recreation or something for 30 min. Just a little bit.
Been feeling good lately. Skin is meh, but that’s okay. I’ve been better at leaving zits alone lately, and I’m EXCITED just because. No reason. Things are good, and exercising will take that happy feeling to the next level :) who wants to join me?
I’m sick of the anxiety. I’m sick of the panic attacks. I’m sick of being skeptical. I wish I could trust people. I have no reason not to, I just can’t. Every time someone says something, tells me something, anything, I find reason to doubt them, I wonder if they’re lying, wonder if they’re…
When contemplating disorders such as Asperger’s syndrome, there is a tendency to focus on negative aspects, such as difficulty in reading social cues. But many of those with Asperger’s syndrome have positive traits as well, which has led some people to question whether it should be viewed as a difference rather than a disorder.
Trustworthy and Reliable
Most people with Asperger’s are dependable and loyal. They don’t play games or force others to live up to demanding social expectations. Aspies have no hidden agendas and no interest in harming others or taking advantage of their weaknesses. They are not inclined to lie to, steal from, or attack the reputations of those around them. Aspies are not likely to be bullies, con artists, or social manipulators, and girls with Asperger’s syndrome are less inclined to be fickle or bitchy than their neurotypical counterparts. While some people with Asperger’s may lash out when provoked, they are unlikely to launch unprovoked attacks, verbal or otherwise.
Aspies like to spend time alone and are perfectly capable of entertaining themselves. While most like to have friends, their need for social contact is not usually as strong as that of ordinary people. Because they are not motivated by an intense social drive to spend time with anybody who happens to be available, they can be selective, choosing honest, genuine, dependable people who share their interests.
Free of Prejudice
Aspies are very accepting of the quirks and idiosyncrasies of others. Most don’t discriminate against anyone based on race, gender, age, or any other surface criteria, but instead judge people based on their behaviour. They don’t usually recognize hierarchies, and so are unlikely to accord someone superior status simply because that person is wealthy or has attained a high position in an organization.
Those with Asperger’s can listen to people’s problems and provide a fresh perspective, offering pure assessments based on the the information provided, untainted by the judgments that people often make regarding one another’s social position or social skills. Others can relax and be themselves around an Aspie without fearing social censure.
Aspies will not go along with the crowd if they know that something is wrong. Most stick to their positions, even in the face of intense social pressure, and their values aren’t shaped by financial, social, or political influences.
Most Aspies have a good work ethic and pay attention to detail. Conscientious, reliable, and honest, many Aspies make very good employees if able to control their pace and work within either a solitary or socially supportive environment. Aspies are persistent, and when they set their minds to something or make a promise, they can usually be trusted to follow through.
Intelligent and Talented
Those with Asperger’s syndrome often have above-average intelligence, and many have one or more highly developed talents. They are more likely than those of the general population to pursue a university education, and because many are drawn to technology, they tend to become proficient in the technological media required for lucrative employment in the Information Age.
Enthusiasm and a propensity for obsessive research ensure that Aspies develop a broad and deep base of knowledge in subjects of interest. They loathe small talk and trivialities, preferring instead to talk about significant things that will enhance their knowledge base.
Because they have exceptional memories, those with Asperger’s can bring up a variety of interesting facts (though some of these facts will only be interesting to the Aspies themselves), as well as recalling fine details that others miss. They also bring a highly original perspective to problem solving, and their acute sensitivity may support creative talents as well.
According to Brasic (27 April 2011), “Published case reports of individuals with Asperger syndrome suggest an association with the capacity to accomplish cutting-edge research in computer science, mathematics, and physics, as well as outstanding creative work in art, film, and music.”
Some of those with Asperger’s syndrome have great endurance when engaging in activities they like, which may translate into a talent for certain athletic pursuits, despite an inclination to be clumsy. Some Aspies have talents for swimming, rowing, running, bodybuilding, or other activities that require sustained physical effort. They tend to prefer individual sports to team sports, as there are no social demands and they can exercise complete control over the activity.
Those who develop an interest in sport or fitness are likely to work at it every day, often for long periods of time. This tendency to adhere unvaryingly to routines enables Aspies who have fitness interests to stay fit and healthy, manifesting an exercise ethic that ordinary people can only match with a heroic exertion of will power.