day 6. (TRIGGERS - DERM, TRICH)
DAY SIX : TRIGGERS - WHAT TRIGGERS YOU TO PICK/PULL (IN WORDS)? HOW DO YOU DEAL WITH EXPOSURE TO THESE?
This is a touchy subject for most of us - triggers can be by any sense: something you see, smell, taste, feel or hear. They can depend on the time of day, the weather and your mood, and they can lead to behaviours that you will regret later.
I have a few triggers - the most common one, especially since it’s summertime, is boredom. If I’m hanging out, surfing on my computer, or laying down, I’ll glide my fingers over my skin, and see if there are any spots to annihilate. I’ve been dealing with this by trying to keep myself occupied - knitting, fidget toys, doing some craft project all help. I forget to work on things though, so the distraction always comes back.
Another huge trigger is anytime the skin is exposed - when I use the bathroom, or when I shower are big ones. The sight of my legs, my boobs, my face will start my inspecting. Lately I’ve gotten better at controlling it though.
This is one that I don’t think of so much: my sensory problems. I usually use an epilator for leg hair removal, and the prickly feeling of hair growing back will usually cause me to roll up my pants and inspect my legs. I even sometimes pick at ingrown hairs (I know it’s gross, sorry). The presence of leg hair drives me crazy, and I just want it to stop growing. I’ve even tried to physically rip it out trich-style, but it doesn’t really work for me - not quite a trichster. It’s actually bothering me right now - they’re prickly against my pants - it feels like I’m being poked with a lot of tiny needles. Not very comfortable. Because I’m seeing a dermatologist soon about getting insured for laser hair removal though, I’m getting it grow out. Hopefully the prickling will subside once I’m a hairy beast again, haha.